I know I know It's been too long....

My life is crazy right now and I, unfortunately do not have a working computer to support my daily dose of rants and raves to this blog. I miss my morning diary more than I can stand it. I apologize to my fans who have now dwindled to me and my dog, Oscar.

Some things I feel I need to say:

I gotta love and hate this country I live in. A country that envokes people to spend millions making a movie about 9/11 and glorifing the survival of 2 people who made it when so many didn't. I think the whole thing is an urban legend. The two officers are MILLIONAIRES when I know of so many families who lost their family members that were waiters and kitchen staff in WOTW and have recieved nothing.

I appreciate that this country can only produce this movie and project $27.5 million in in't first weekend, BUT that Las Vegas is actually orchastrating bets on whether or not it can make the cut. Only in the USA


I hate wedding dress stores. Particularly the one where my girls bought their bridesmaids dresses from. I hate the word bridesmaid. Who the hell came up with such a lame ass word. I don't need a maid, I need someone to get shitty with me and wipe snot off my face. Those people are called FRIENDS. I hate getting constant run around.

Oh this just in: I also hate my new job. There. I said it. And it feels great to clear the air and be honest about it. PEOPLE are SWINE

Apartments in Manhattan are so expensive. I do not think we are EVER going to find a place to call "our" home. $2,800 a month? Are fucking mad? does it come with someone to wipe snot off my face?

And of course I would not be able to leave you all without a picture of the day. I for one have not been to the beach ONCE this entire bullshit of a summer, but if you see her, let her know I hope she has a red one waiting for me.

Peace out.

My dad

My dad is big and cuddly and crazy. He makes me go on all sorts of excursions weith him and experience food, places and wines I never had before.

My dad is my greatest hero. He works hard and has a crazy family values look at the world

People are afraid at my dad at first. They think he is intimidating when really he is just shy.

My dad is 6'5 and looks like a Sopranos star and a player on the NY Giants

My dad is funny and loves to make people feel special and laugh just like me:)

A Whole entire month

I 've been a bad, bad gurl. So many things have taken my attention away from you dear, laddy. I cannot forgive myself for abandoning you. Life has taken a record leap and yet as I sit before you I am more confused as ever.

So I started the new job at the prestigious Avenue of Fifth. Some highs and certainly some lows. Much more work than I have EVER imagined. Should a bride to be, really begun a new career just 4 months before her nuptials? I want to start my business now more than ever.

Wedding days ahead. So much to do still, so little time (now that I don't play on my wedding websites all day) to get my ass in gear.

I love long walks in the park. Weather has been crappy. I miss you all so much.
WHERE IS MY DAMN COCKTAIL?

I promise to be more attentive.

WOW Good news all around!

Heya,

Hope everyone enjoyed their holiday season. Jim and I had the best weekend ever!!!!!!! Mind you I was SOOOOO sick with a cold, but I tried to get out of bed and make the best of it. We finished up our shower registry (doesn't look like too much is off yet, but alas, we will still get 10% off the stuff we buy ourselves). We walked this entire city this beautiful weekend. So much sunshine, so many good talks, laughs and pina coladas.

My good friend Victoria also got engaged this weekend. Shout out to her and her fiance Tom. Good going you guys!!!!!!!

Have you guys seen the show Tiara Girls? These girls are wannabe beauty queens. One 16 year old girl was trying to win a pagent and her mother was trying to convince her to get liposuction and have botox. SIXTEEN, people!!!!!!!!!! I sometimes think that beauty shows are really part of cult I know nothing about. My mom bought us one nice pair of shoes each easter and I felt like a princess when I got them. My grams made all of my party dresses and who could ask for more. These gurls get pushed beyond the limit. No mother can be a good one when they are pushing plastic surgery so young. It is one thing if an adult wants to make that educated decision for themselves. URGGHH. I get so angry.

My Last Day

So this is it, I guess. My last day at a job I have been at for almost 6 years. 6 years. I haven't done anything for 6 years in my whole life. I don't think leaving here has hit me yet, but it is starting to. It's weird bc for so long all I wanted to do was leave. I am super happy about the new cool job, but I do feel a little aprehensive about it all. I am not yet sad yet, well maybe just a little.

As I look back on these past 6 years, I think about all that has happened in my life and all the changes I went through as it occured. In six years I have lived in 3 different places (four if you count my houdini brooklyn apartment). Both of my roommates in the past six years have been male and I love them both dearly. I have had 3cats and 1dog . I have been to Boston, Austin, Miami, Michigan, Chicago, Arizona, NJ, Virginia, DC and Hop Bottom Pennsylvania. I have had 3 boyfriends and one fiance. I have made about 30 new friends and lost 6 in that time. I have broken two bones. I have gotten my second degree. I have drank 1000 bottles of wine, many of which occured during the best times of my life. I have rented a house in the Hamptons and once lived the high life. Durning the past 6 years I have experienced both sides of money: a time when it was endless and a time when it clearly came to an end.

Looking back, I have to wonder whose lives I have affected, ruined, enlightened....Those I have made laugh and cry. Those who have done the same to me. It's here I realize I am truly blessed. And as I leave this chapter of my life, I know that I have no regrets. I enjoyed every minute of it.

Let the good times ROLL

I love that Memorial Day has decided to knock on my door and surprise my ass. I thought it was the Sushi I just ordered. I never would have buzzed you in had I known!!!!!!! Summer is here people. Get out the wax, clean yourselves up, stop eating pretzels and get off the couch!!!!!!

Summer reminds me of the following things.

It's really amazing that what stays with us; what is the foundation of who we become and who we are all stems from childhood. When you think about it, children are in essence, the shapers of the adult, the CEO of your body if you will. When you see a child today they are deep in progress on the formulation of some adult. CRAZY. So much smarter than us. Anyway the List.

Summer reminds me of:

• the Mister Softee song
• flip flops
• the smell of fresh grass just mowed
• BAR BE QUE
• sand in my underwear
• live music played outdoors
• the color of beautiful skin all sun-kissed
• the smell of sun tan lotion
• babies in those cute big hats
• late nights in the sun
• long walks
• frozen beverages
• my ass sitting by some pool

Ah........

Summer, I am almost ready.....Just give me on second

Gorbachev would be proud

So Jim is currently in Moscow, chilling with his vodka and cavier, while I am here squaring away my office life into what seems to be three boxes on the floor beneath my desk. Damn--six years seems like a freaking long time, I mean it's practically ten years. Six years also means that I have not been a college gal for that long. And the weird part is I still feel like one. I still feel young, I still feel crazy, I still feel like it's okay to engage in cocktails at 1pm. What is crazy though is how fast time really does fly.

I can remember a time in my life when I looked ahead to being 19, and I thought that really encompassed being a young woman. Now, looking back almost (ALMOST) ten years I cannot believe I am going to be someone's wife. I mean it's nuts. It truly is an out of body experience. It's the greatest feeling in the world. We are growing up. Scratch that: we are grown up. I cannot confirm when that happened. I still have so much to do, so many places I have never been before.

I guess those who have come before us really meant it when they say embrace your youth. Time slips through our fingertips like a wet Amstel on a hot day. I find myself looking back to memories of my past. People who have made me who I am today and probably don't even know it. Times when I told myself, at that moment, to remember this forever. Whether it was a late night chat in college, a vacation or a nothing special day, or even a fun summer conversation or drunkfest with friends. Someday I will probably look at now and think 'that was so long ago'

We are all growing, moving, dancing to our own tunes now. We no longer need to conform in order to grow. Uniform skirts and first jobs are over. Now we need to carve out our own tomorrow.

I just really need a beer.